God is Great!!

Hey all well recently with everything happening I have started scrapbooking, FINALLY!! Well first I was going to start on my senior book but it has kind of been everything cause I chose which photos I want to do at that time and it is everywhere. So I have some pages for my senior book, my pregnancy journal book, and Adalyns' life book!! So I am going to post the photos of some of them up tomorrow... Well I am currently looking for a job and not looking forward to getting a job, it means less time with my daughter. I am so blessed with everything God has given to me and the people He has put into my life. Thank you God. His is truly the greatest. And it has taken me sometime to get back in the mode of church but I was young and wanted to spend time sleeping and hang out with friends. But God is my number one and I am grateful for all His blessing like my daughter, family, friends, tarrance, and tarrances family. Tarrance's family has really taken me as one of the own and I thank God for that because it is the family I wish I had growing up. Okay enough sad stuff I am tired and about to go lay down... I have to go to Wal-Mart in the morning to get some nice antique looking paper to print my resume`s on... I really want a receptionist job... Sweet dreams to all.

Birthday!!

       Today was Nana Betty Davis's birthday. I got to go to luch with her, Aimee, Adalyn, adn Cora! We also went to the scrapbook store in Andover. I have a good day and I have got 4 pages done of scrapping today. I just love scrapping. Right now Adalyn is asleep in Aimee's arms. Colby and his friends caught a big catfish today. So now the boys, minus Tarrance, are setting up a trot line at the same pond they caught the first catfish. Tarrance bought a 2001 truck today and went to Madison, Kansas to see Kirk and Glen. I am very happy for Tarrance buying him a truck. So tonight Adalyn and I will be home alone, fun! I hate being at home by ourselves. Last night Adalyn slept in her crib for the first time she didnt sleep in there all by herself until 3 a.m. then Tarrance watched her until 9 a.m. Well I have been praying and I want to find a church that is right for me and my daughter that preaching the word and gets you involved. I love God, my daughter, and my life. I will hopefully get into these CNA classes to get a job soon and I might have to get a job during the week to get cash to get my feet on the grouond so I can get a place for my daughter and I. Everyone have a wonderful night!

This Week!

        Well this week has been good. I spent 4 days in Oklahoma. I had a blast with my friends Jessica and Efren. Adalyn went to her first movie at a theatre and it was The Last Song, a good movie by the way! I got fitted for my Maid of Honor dress for Jessica's wedding... I cannot wait for her and Kyle to get married they are just the perfect match. Adalyn has been fussy the past couples days because she has been fighting her sleep. She is actually asleep right now in her crib for the first time at night. She is 3 months and 4 days! She is so darn adorable. I have prayed so much this week and I cannot wait for them to be answered whenever that time comes. I love my daughter and my life. I am blessed to have my daughter, GOD, friends and semi-family in my life. I am planning on finding a church for Adalyn and I to start going to. I am going to look online at some churchs here in Wichita, Kansas. And I am going to start looking at some rental houses and apartments. I am going to call the Bethal House Training Institute today and schedule a tour of the school and hopefully start some classes and start my career as a CNA for right now to get my feet on the ground. Sweet dreams! Part of me wants to take Adalyn and have her sleep next to me. But I wont she needs to get used to her bed... Im sad though. Okay sweet dreams.....

What a day!!

        Last night was awful and I apologized after everything happened. I love my daughter!! Adalyn and I came down to Oklahoma to stay with my aunt for a few days. Today was great! It felt wonderful to see all of my close friends and to just go out finally and have a good time. I went to the movies with Adalyn and Efren, it was Adalyn's first movie in a theatre. And then dinner with Adalyn, Nhi, and Efren. Adalyn wore her onesie tutu outfit and she looked too cute. She is asleep right now. I am hoping I will receive answers to know what path I should take for my daughter and me. Well I am about to go to sleep... Sweet dreams everyone!

Single Mother....

           My life and my daughter's life will never be the same. I am going to be a single mom and my daughter is going to grow up with her parents being separated. It kills me to know that I have done everything in my power to make it work and I am repeatedly turned down. I am going to give my daughter everything I can to make sure she is super happy. I gained a family when I dated him but now I feel I am going to lose them. I will only be apart of them when I bring Adalyn around. That makes me sad because they were the family that I wish mine were to my mother and me. I am very grateful for everything I have been blessed with even if it was only for a short while. I know in my heart God has bigger plans for Adalyn and I. We will get our fairytale ending. Our love was a fairytale and now my prince charming has grown apart from me. I will always love you not just for our daughter but because I truly love you. I will not stand and wait for him to change his mind twice was enough to try. It is time to put this in the past I will not forget our love. Gosh writing really helps me get all my feelings out and say somethings that I can't say out loud. I am going to write this in my journal that my mother sent me.

Life is a great big canvas, and you should throw all the paint on it you can. ~Danny Kaye

Just Starting

Well I am just now starting a blog. I want this blog to be about my daughter, my life, and my new found hobby scrapbooking. I have started the past week on my senior book. I am excited to finish. I am the mother of a beautiful little girl. My birthday is coming up April 29. I have been so lucky to come into a great family that is loving and just full of fun! The family I have come into is Adalyn's father, Tarrance Witten. It is the family I have always wanted. Tarrance and I are currently separated. I am praying that we can work everything out. I am a online college student now since I had my daughter. I am thinking of switching my major to Photography. We currently live in Wichita, Kansas. I am loving my life and I am very thankful to have God in my life and everything he has blessed my life with.