Thursday, August 18, 2011

LoVe....



LOVE is a main reason I am here. I love to give out LOVE to people. I love my children, mother, GOD, and friends, and family. I am blessed to have people in my life that stick by me! Today the kids and I got to take photos with my mother! The photographer is working on a project to show the governor of the women in prison on nonviolent crimes and how it hurts their children and grandchildren being in the. I is going to be made into a book so hopefully some more laws will be made to help get women released... I love my mother so much no matter what choices she has made, we all make mistakes and just need someone to give us a chance to prove what we are made of. I am extremely proud of my mother it took her a decade before she finally got her GED but it took her being behind bars to accomplish that, prison is good for people in a way. I cannot wait to have her home!!!!! My hands are getting fuller and fuller everyday with the kids. Tonight I had one in my arms and the other laying across my lap. I am blessed with them! Today I won a FREE $20 print credit from this amazing photographer! Cant wait to go have our pictures taken. I think I am going to do a session for myself that way I will have photos of myself to put up next to the kids professional photos!!!

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

YAY!!!

I COULD NOT BE ANY HAPPIER WITH MY LIFE RIGHT NOW. GOD IS TRULY BLESSING ME WITH SOME GOOD THINGS. MY KIDS ARE DOING WONDERFUL AND CHANGING SO MUCH EACH DAY! I HAD AN AMAZING NIGHT LAST WEEK! I HAVE ANOTHER DATE TOMORROW NIGHT AND CANT WAIT TO GO TO IT!!!!! I AM FINALLY IN A PLACE THAT I DONT CARE ANYMORE AND THAT ITS OK THAT THEY HAVE MADE THIS BED AND WILL HAVE TO LAY IN IT LATER!
MY MEDICAL SITUATION IS NOT GOING TO WELL.... I AM NOT HAPPY WITH THAT BUT I GUESS I HAVE TO TAKE WHAT I CAN GET. I AM SCARED EVERYDAY THAT I COULD POSSIBLY BE BACK IN THAT HOSPITAL BED. MY PT/INR LEVELS ARE PRETTY LOW AND I HAVE HAD MY MEDICINE UPED TO 7.5MG IN THE PAST TWO WEEKS.
NEXT WEEK I SHOULD HEAR IF I GOT THE APT IN MOORE OR NOT. I AM GOING TO LOOK AT A PLACE IN DUNCAN AND HOPEFULLY CAN MAKE A TRIP TO EUFALA TO LOOK AT A HOUSE ON SOME LAND!!!
MY BESTFRIEND JESSICA'S BABY SHOWER IS THIS WEEKEND AND I AM EXCITED EXCEPT I HAVENT BEEN ABLE TO AFFORD TO BUY HER ANYTHING. I WILL JUST MAKE LITTLE GARRETT SOME STUFF BEFORE HE IS BORN!
I AM A LITTLE SAD THAT THE LITTLE SISTER I ONCE HAD WANTS NOTHING TO DO WITH ME BUT I GUESS THATS FINE AND SHE IS GROWING INTO A BEAUTIFUL WOMAN AND I HOPE WE CAN BE FRIENDS ONE DAY. LOVE YOU C.
I GOT ALL MY SCHOOL BOOKS THE OTHER DAY EXCEPT FOR ONE BUT I AM GETTING THAT ONE ON MONDAY!!!
HAVE A GOOD NIGHT!!!!

Saturday, August 13, 2011

Blessed

Howdy! Well my hospital stay ended after four days there... I have to be on blood thinners for a while. Lately the doctors are not able to get my pt/inr levels stable enough. My levels are staying too low and that's not good at all. I seen my ob the other day and found out that if I ever get pregnant again I will be a high risk pregnancies wasn't expecting that. Also the only birth control I can ever have is a copper iud because I can't have anything that will release hormones. The kids and I are doing amazing!!!! We moved in with my dad for a while it's not too bad! I still have nightmares about certain things. I have questions as to why they are being treated this way and that no one seems to care at all about them....... It's really sad and upsetting. I start school next week!! I think I might have a date tomorrow night! It will be my first date since the disaster happened and I'm super excited. The distance is doing wonders for me and I can't wait for our visit to Kansas!!! We are going to visit Ashley then we are going close to Kansas City to visit one of my childhood friends!!! Thinking of taking the kids for a walk and hopefully to the library to finally get these papers printed off and sent in to get this stuff handled. If you just ask I would let you but no one seems to even want to ask. I've applied to two jobs so far and I have a newspaper full of rceptionist jobs to apply for! There's one at the hospital that would be perfect hours that I hope I get and there was an ad for a work at home position which I would love!!!! Have a blessed day!