Ready for it to be over......

So I can barelly hide the fact that I am stressed and ready for everything to be settled.

My daughter got her ears pierced and went to the zoo. My unborn son is kicking hard enough to feel him on the outside. All the major pieces for my daughter and son have arrived finally. Not sure how I am managing doing all this but I am. I got my daughter her bedding back finally, a new crib, tons of clothes and crafts for me to make her!! For my son bedding, crib & dresser, swing, playpen and clothes and bottles.

A couple of my close friends are throwing me a baby shower in June that I am super excited about. The babys theme is Western! I am growing more and more everyday... I am due July 20. Its pretty crazy cause I have so many friends that we are all due around the same times!

I got a new job that I start tomorrow hopefully. I am a little scared but hoping it all goes well! I am still looking for a car because mine is undriveable and using my aunts is hard because she needs it sometimes as well. On top of all that we are moving next weekend to another house and I am excited but I dont have alot of people to help us and I hate unpacking! I was suppose to visit my mother tomorrow but looks like I wont be able to make it. I sure do miss her and cant wait for her to be home...

I am taking my daughter to the Shriners circus on Sunday with her cousin Khaiden and his mom Bayli! None of us have ever been... I bought tons of crafts to hopefully figure something out to make my daughter and then somethings to use in my rooms. I have to order a new comforter set because mine has a huge slit in it and I am still using it cause its not terrible but the stuffing is starting to come out...

I had a doctor appt Wednesday and it went great! Christian is good his heartbeat was 150bpm and my belly is measuring at a 24!

Well thats all for tonight!!

Where to Start....

Its been a while since I have written. A lot has happen since the last post not sure if I wrote last time but I am a single mother again and struggling to make ends meet. I am 21wks and 6 days pregnant with a little boy. Their father and I split at the end of January and it has been hard to forget about him. I truly love him with all my heart and wish we could have worked whatever happened out. I am naming our son Christian Lee Bieger. Adalyn got her first molar in a couple weeks ago and is a little climber! I have no help with buying anything for our son so I have been scraping together any money to get stuff for him and I had to get Adalyn another crib because her original one is being kept from me. I hate to be going through this but I have to get through it for my kids and it will make me a stronger mother and person in the end. We are supposed to go to court for joint custody which has hit me pretty hard and not sure what to think of it all. I am ready to be over all of this drama with him and his family as well. I feel like the bad person in all of this and I am being treated terribly by some of them. You cannot expect people to shun me just cause you say so and turn our friends against me but I guess it’s happening so whatever. I thought I had people close to me that I could trust but I do not think I do I can only trust in my kids and myself. I hate to say that but it’s all about my kids. I am tired of being stressed, emotionally, and mentally drained. I want to start our lives and not worry about drama and people keeping tabs on me, please let us live our lives and let me enjoy this pregnancy. I am so torn on what to do with this pregnancy when the time comes to deliver my little blessing. I love everyone that has been there for me. Thank you so much.