Where to Start....

Its been a while since I have written. A lot has happen since the last post not sure if I wrote last time but I am a single mother again and struggling to make ends meet. I am 21wks and 6 days pregnant with a little boy. Their father and I split at the end of January and it has been hard to forget about him. I truly love him with all my heart and wish we could have worked whatever happened out. I am naming our son Christian Lee Bieger. Adalyn got her first molar in a couple weeks ago and is a little climber! I have no help with buying anything for our son so I have been scraping together any money to get stuff for him and I had to get Adalyn another crib because her original one is being kept from me. I hate to be going through this but I have to get through it for my kids and it will make me a stronger mother and person in the end. We are supposed to go to court for joint custody which has hit me pretty hard and not sure what to think of it all. I am ready to be over all of this drama with him and his family as well. I feel like the bad person in all of this and I am being treated terribly by some of them. You cannot expect people to shun me just cause you say so and turn our friends against me but I guess it’s happening so whatever. I thought I had people close to me that I could trust but I do not think I do I can only trust in my kids and myself. I hate to say that but it’s all about my kids. I am tired of being stressed, emotionally, and mentally drained. I want to start our lives and not worry about drama and people keeping tabs on me, please let us live our lives and let me enjoy this pregnancy. I am so torn on what to do with this pregnancy when the time comes to deliver my little blessing. I love everyone that has been there for me. Thank you so much.