My Pregnancy Journal

Hi all well I have had a stroke of srapping energy! I started my pregnancy journal finally. Well I am going to show you what I have so far. I wish I would get motivated to do this on my other books!!

This is the first page in the book... I think this page is simple but cute at the same time. I used a photo of my belly when I was about 3 months, August 9, 2009. I used a red vintage paper for the background on the photo and wording...

This is the second page. This page has the three important days that I should always remember. The night we conceived a child, when we found out we were expecting and our scheduled due date. I didnt put the actual date she was born because I want it to wait until the end. I ripped each part and roughed up the paper to look somewhat older.

This is the third page. This is the Doctor page. I have two squares with every date of my doctor visits I was at throughout my pregnancy. I used a pink page and the different parts are white printing paper and then green flower vintage background paper. It has two different flowers in two corners.

This is the fifth page. I didnt put the fourth page up yet because part of the writtings got ripped so I just skipped it... On this page I used a polka dot paper, then striped paper to do the lines. I just picked a good font on the computer and printed out the words and cut it down. I put a flower next to each line, they each have two flowers with a dark silver brad in the middle. Over the letters I traced over with markers, the colors are yellow, peach, blue & pink.

This is the sixth page. Even though we arent together anymore our daughter should still know about how we met and the love we had for one another. I put "When we met" centered on the right hand side. A photo from my senior pictures. At the bottom of the page is a index card telling where we met and it is colored on the outside with Distress Ink by Tim Holtz

This is the seventh page. Like I said we are not together but our daughter will know the love and friendship we have for one another. On this page I used two photos, which is one of my senior pictures on the left and then our first picture we took together as a couple in March of 2009. I placed a heart in the bottom right hand corner with the saying "because I love you" on it. at the bottom of the page  I placed "Always & Forever" above the "In Love"

I hope all you enjoy this... I will post more when I get them finished. I am hoping to have this finished really soon!!

Busy Day!!

 

June 15 is our first meeting for our new mothers club! We are very excited. We have a surprise in stores for the mothers... We are just going to start off simple with the outings and meetings. We really have high hopes for this club! So far it looks like a small group but we know it will grow.

Today was fun! In the morning Adalyn was super cranky so she took a few naps... Later on she had a play date with Dylin, Heather Rogers son... They were so cute together. They almost gave baby kisses to eachother. Adalyn was kicking him gently and slapping his face gently. Dylin is only 17 days older than Adalyn. They were so darn cute!

Today I got all ready to go apply at jobs. I got a call from New York & Company to come back Saturday for a second interview. So I went and applied at Hooters today. Then I headed downtown and I am 4 miles from the next place and my car dies over 6 times. So I park my car at a meter, I never put change in it, and sit for a bit. Then I drove to Bass Pro Shop to wait on Brittany's mom to come follow me. Well my car was running fine so I decided to attempt to drive home. I made it safely. I have to take my car in somewhere and get a ball park figure on what is wrong and how much it will cost. I just LOVE paying to fix things.

I just love all the time I get to spend with my daughter. I am going to miss being a stay-at-home mom... But this is what I signed on when I stopped fighting for what we wanted. I miss him everyday but I know God does things for a reason. And there is a good reason why we are not together but I have a feeling on what it is. I feel sometimes like I am the only for still trying to make things work or for us to be civil but it is hard when you go it alone. I dont have much family to turn to. I have his family but I feel wrong doing it and he doesnt like it. I am scared that when those papers get turned in and are denied I will be completely clueless as to what to do. I said if I had a kid I would not want to live on assistance and I wanted to give my daughter what I could. It kills me to have to depend on ours but I have got used to it because I have had the pleasure of a man do that for me and take care of us but now I am on my own once more. I thought that struggle was over but it is just beginning. I am so grateful for God blessing me with a healthy daughter, her father, and his family taking me in as one of their own. They never had to do that but I am so thankful for the kindness and open-heartedness they have given me. I will always love and cherish them. I always wished that my family was like that towards me. I wonder why I have been put through so many tests but it has been to make me stronger and it has. I once again today have gotten pushed to the side twice.

Well I seen Letters to Juilet and Dear John movies in the past two days. And I loved them. Dear John reminds me of a new short lived romance I had but is now over. I keep saying "Everything happens for a reason." You get back what you give. I am not sure if I am giving enough. I am a good mother and I have received a wonderful daughter,  I am a good friend and I receive great friends, but I must not give enough romantic love to receive that never ending love story.

Thank God everyday for everything He has given and continues to give to all of us.

Sweet dreams to all...

Stalker....

Never thought I would say this again but I have a STALKER!! I mean I have not done anything to this person except that I could have something they want and they are ready to let go. Its a little nerve racking to know that someone is this way... All I have to say is to leave me and people I know alone... If you arent getting answers from the other person after you continue to ask then leave it alone it just means that they dont want you to know and that is fine because you are not apart of their life anymore. I am just so livid that I need some boxing gloves and a punching bag!! So that is me venting about the STALKER...


I have missed my daughter even though she has only been gone for the night. My life is so wrapped around her which I love that. She spent the night with her great grandparents Granmama and Papa... They just love having her around. Tarrance wasnt able to make it down because of the money. I hate that money is such a problem with people now a days. I wish we all had money to do whatever we wanted, but in some parts of the world that would be bad..


I am jealous of Aimee and Cora because they went and watched Letters to Juliet last night. They said it was good!! I cant wait to go see it...


I watched Robin Hood last week and it was AMAZING!! I am telling you to do yourself a favor and go see it. I also enjoyed The Back-Up Plan.. I just finished watching The Book of Eli. I would be scared if that ever happen to the country... I have all my faith in God to know that He will take care of us.


Well Heather Rogers and I have been talking about starting up a club for young mothers. We want to call it Marvelous Mothers... We want to be a non-profit club and hopefully work to get sponsored.. I am excited about this because it would be a great club to give advice, suppport, activities, charity work... And a place for fun for both mothers and the kids!!


I think this is all i have right now... So have a blessed day and thank God everyday for everything he does.

Long and Sad Time....

Well I havent blogged in a while because so much has happened... Well this Monday will be 2 weeks since I moved back to Oklahoma. I moved into my aunts house with my daughter. We moved because Tarrance and I kept arguing. I could not be around that or put our daughter through that. I miss Kansas, it had become my home. I miss Aimee, Shannon, Nana, and all the kids, oh and scrapping with Aimee... When I moved back to Oklahoma I started talking to a long time friend we were seeing where we could be more than friends but now he is back home in South Carolina for the summer. We were talking, texting and hanging out everyday but now I havent heard from him since he left. We have so much in our lives that I am confused about what is going on. When he left we were on the same page about us but now I feel as I got played... I am a little worried that he got back with his ex but if he did it is his loss... Its sad because we have a strong connection... Thursday I got in to a wreck, it was my fault, I rearended a guy on accident. We were on the highway and he got over and I thought he was all the way over but he wasnt. So I went and hit the driver side back bumper. His car just got scratched but my tire fender is bent and i have a dent in front of that. We didnt file a police report I am thankful... Well Adalyn is 4 months now!! She talks so much, she is close to laughing and sitting up on her own... I love that little girl so much!

Lost....

Hi all I haven’t blogged in a while. Adalyn will be 4 months this Tuesday and she is 15 lb 2 oz, she is too adorable!! I have had a great week here is what has happened:

         • I have met many new friends that are super nice and fun to be around.

         • Today I helped set up for Nicole Calvert’s baby shower. She is having a baby boy, his name is Brody Ray, and is due June 24.

        • I didn’t get to send out my mother’s day cards. I feel so bad.

        • I went to Riverfest in Wichita for the first time. It was an adventure.

        • I feel a huge struggle coming up soon.

        • I got accepted to Heritage College for X-ray Medical Technician. I think I am going to have to post pone that too because so much is happening.

        • I am 10 seconds from moving back to Oklahoma and I know I will miss Kansas because I have become familiar with it almost. I have to do what will be best for Adalyn and me now.

        • I am thinking of applying at Hooters. What a surprise the one place everyone has always told me to work at. I need a job that I will make good money for my family of two.

       • This week I went to the Bombing Memorial in Bricktown it was so pretty. Then we walked around the canal it was a lot of fun.

      • I am hoping to see Iron Man 2 in a week but might drag my friends to see something else.

      • If I move I need to find storage and I hate having to pay that because I don’t have any money. I hate being broke it’s not a good feeling depending on a person to take care of you…

     • I can’t wait till I can go to school without any troubles.

     • When I applied at Heritage I won a free one hour massage! Yay me!

Well that is mainly what has been going on. I love my daughter and I thank GOD every day for all the blessings he has put in my path. All the things GOD does are amazing…

HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY TO ALL…